Dear milk,

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Hi there. I finally decided to reconnect with you. You know, yummy, delicious, liquidy, white heaven you, you haven't been that nice to me in the last couple of years!! And I'm kinda mad that I have to buy a separate container of you, so you won't upset my tummy. That's why I haven't had a bowl or glass of you for so long.

But it wasn't always like this. I remember having a bowl of cereal with extra milk every morning before heading to school. And then for dinner, I'll have a glass of milk with some yummy chocolate chip cookies. On the weekends you were present with my plate of pancakes. Or when we were off to an early game of dad's or brother's games, I will grab a strawberry milk from the donut shop. And that mug of Chocolate Abuelita that mom and grandma made us during the winter, I can't even enjoy it to the fullest now.

You were always there to comfort me. When I couldn't sleep the remedy was always a glass of milk. When I was feeling sad, a glass of milk with a cookie, always made me feel better. Milk always made me happy.

All I ever wanted to do is love you, but all I got in return was an upset tummy.  But it's okay I'll still be coming back for more! I hope to enjoy you forever, even if it is in that special labeled carton.

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Dreams, Loyalty and No Regrets

I'm really lagging behind on my posts for Bare Your Soul!! Fail!! This weekend was just so busy with the baby shower, but here is my one-paragraph (I really tried) answers.

Do you have recurring dreams? Explain.
I wish I could remember all my dreams, at least one dream. But sometimes I just can't. One time I even put a notebook by my bedside for me to jot down everything I could once I wake, but that didn't work. 

But one type of dream that I do remember is running away from someone that is chasing me. I consider this a nightmare, because I wake up from this type in the middle of the night scared out of my mind. Oh and there is different variations, sometimes the person who is chasing me has a gun, or a knife. Sometimes there is a bomb, and a group of us have to run away together. It's really scary. No one actually dies in these nightmares, but still they are pretty frightening.

"Dreaming about being chased generally means that you are "being told by your unconsciousness that you're avoiding an issue or a person," - {Source} 

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One word that describes me and why
Loyal. 
That was harder than I thought. But I think Loyal is the best way to describe me. Roll with me and I will have your back until the day I die. I think I invest everything to my relationships, with relatives and friends, and become instantly attached to you. I will always care for you, no matter what happens.

To me loyalty means being able to tell that person the truth. It also being able to be there for the person through the good times and the bad. Being loyal is believing in the person, even when that person doesn't believe in themselves. Being able to protect your person from harm, at least trying to, whether it be physical or emotional harm. 

 I value my relationships so much, and the only think I ask in return is to be loyal to me. So if I feel like I have given you my trust, my loyalty to you, and you don't care about me the same way I do, then we have a problem. Sadly, I've lost some friends along the way because of this. 

If I could do it all again, would I?

If I could do it all over again.... hmmm. As I look back at my life, especially my high school years and my college years where things began to change, I would like to say that yes I would go back in time and do it differently. Choose different decisions, so that I wouldn't hurt myself or other people. But then I don't think I would be the same person I am today. And although I'm still far from the person I want to be, I like the person I have become. All the experiences that I have gone through in the last 10 + years have all shaped me to the person I am today. Yeah I've done some really stupid things, but I've all had some of the best moments of my life. I have no regrets. And yes I would do it all over again, the same. 

How has your childhood affected the way you raise your kids?
I don't have any kids. And although I one day wish to be a mom, children are no where in my life plan at the moment. My life is complete right now with my nieces and nephews, which I adore with all my heart.

But when it comes to my childhood, my parents raised us to be open-minded to different people, different experiences of the world. They also taught us the importance of education, by giving their lack of education as an example. They taught me to be humble and kind. And I hope that when I do have children, I could pass some of these lessons down to them. 

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How would you answer these questions?

Birth Order and Childhood Memories!

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I'm putting two posts in one today, I totally missed yesterday's post.
Where do you fall in the birth order of your family? First, middle, baby? Do you think that affected who you are today? 
When I was taking psychology classes in school I was always fascinated with this topic. We talked about how the birth order can have an impact in your personality. 

I'm the first born in the family. 

"As the leader of the pack, firstborns often tend to be:

• Reliable, Conscientious, Structured, Cautious, Controlling, Achievers

Firstborns bask in their parents' presence, which may explain why they sometimes act like mini-adults. Firstborns are diligent and want to be the best at everything they do. They excel at winning the hearts of their elders." source here.

I agree with this one hundred percent. When compared to my brother's I am very cautious and conscious of my every move, word and emotion. I admit I am a perfectionist, I want everything to be perfect, this is not always a good thing. In school, I did my homework right when I came home, and took time to make sure my answers correct. At home, you will find my room organized and clean, for the most time.

Now that I think about it, I am controlling. Although I wasn't raised to show-off or boast about anything, I must admit I am an achiever, even an over-achiever. I felt myself wanting to be the best at everything, in school, with friends, in competitions, in creativity. lol.

When it came to my brothers, I felt myself been over protective of the. Caring for them as if I was their mom. Resliable and responsibility are traits within in the first born, and according to my mother, she said this is true. She says she could always trust me to do something that she wouldn't trust anyone else to do.

Anxious was another trait that describes a first born. And I must agree. I think this comes from the fact that we like to be in control, like to be over-achievers, and when things don't go as planned, we get ansty. At least this is true, I've always felt this pressure to be perfect or do good in school, and when I slipped a little I would have a baby anxiety attack. I felt stressed all the time when I was younger, and then it carried over when I was in college.

I was shy, still am, and I always put everyone else before myself. My friends once told me that it seemed like I wanted to be friends with everyone. And I do! I'm a people-pleaser.


A day in my life I would like to re-live 

Coffee.. right up!!

How does your coffee order at Starbucks mirror your personality? 

Let me start off by saying that I was never a coffee drinker. I started drinking coffee my 4th year in college, oooohh 2 years ago. I've probably taken a sip or two, but never had a cup of coffee by myself before Fall of 2011.  With midterms coming along, and board member meetings for my org, stress was piling up fast. And what did I decide to do is to get a cup of coffee. A White Chocolate Mocha, Iced, please. My first coffee ever, at Starbucks. And I feel in love with it!!!  I was grabbing a cup of coffee every day for the like 2 weeks, until my friends had an intervention, and thank god, because a couple days letter I think I still was too jacked on coffee I couldn't function. 

I stopped for a while, and then out came the Peppermint Mocha at Starbucks, during Christmas. Yumm. 

Now I'm hooked on Pumpkin Spice Lattes!!!!

When I'm not needing the caffeine, I get a Vanilla Bean Frap.

What does this say about myself? 
Whatever coffee house it is I always choose an Iced White Chocolate Mocha. Nothing out of the ordinary. I love to stick with what I know and love! It could also be because I'm an inexperienced coffee drinker, and don't know what to order. 

When I do order outside of my White Chocolate Mochas, I choose those seasonal drinks. My adventurous decision for the year is these seasonal drinks. lol. I guess I like to spice up my order once in a while, when the holidays roll around. ;)

Boring. And Lame. Is what the Vanilla Bean Frap order says about me. Who goes to a coffee shop and orders a Vanilla Bean aka no-coffee-drink.

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What do you like to drink? What do you think it says about your personality?

A day of Thanks and Family.

My Favorite (any) holiday Moment

Ever since I could remember Thanksgiving has been a big holiday in my family. On my dad's side, he has 9 siblings (plus their spouses), I have 30 cousins (counting me) and now we have 7 nieces and nephews (plus 2 on the way). Thanksgiving is one of those holidays we all try to get together! Not all can make it, must most do.

Thanksgiving a couple years back (4 years ago)

We do Thanksgiving Potluck style, and everyone brings a dish. Most of the time, we end up with 2 big turkeys, 2 hams, some tamales, ribs, barbecue chicken, plus the sides dishes, casserole, rice, beans, mash potatoes, macaroni, etc. Oh and we can't forget dessert. BASICALLY,A BIG FEAST.

But it isn't the food that I love the most about Thanksgiving, is the fact that we come together with our family making the food, and then coming together to eat it too. Before we line up ( a 5-7 minute wait) to get the food, someone gives a prayer, and people give thanks to the wonderful things that happen to us. It always warms my heart! I love it!!

Every year, it seems like we add a new member to the family, and I'm so excited to see the family grows. Sometimes I wonder what will happen when all of us cousins, all 30, have our families? It will become harder to break up the holidays with each of our spouses, But I just hope that it stays like this forever!!

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Soulmates..

October 6: Are soulmates "real" or a social construct.

I'm a hopeless romantic. So I would like to believe that soulmates are real.
I believe in soulmates.
I believe that there is a person out there with a soul like mine.
I believe that there can be more than one soulmate for a person.
I believe that soulmate can mean a romantic partner.
I believe that a soulmate can be a best friend.
I believe that a soulmate can be a relative.
I believe a soulmate is a person who makes you complete.
But I also believe that this soulmate might not be the person you spend the rest of your life with, but someone who you will always care for them.
I believe a soulmate is someone who you have an amazing connection with.
Someone who inspires you and who you inspire is a soulmate.
Someone who challenges you physically, emotionally, and mentally.
Someone who believes in you, when you  might believe in yourself.

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I might not have a romantic soulmate, but I do have my best friend, who is my soulmate. I do believe my mom is one of my soulmates too, without her I don't know what I would do.

A Fabulous Dinner Party

October 5: If you could have a dinner with any 3 people who would they be.  (a post from yesterday)

I've been asked this question a couple of times before, and I never know how to answer them, or who would I pick. I think they've always changed.

Audrey. And ICON! A beautiful woman! Talented. I loved her ever since I saw Breakfast at Tiffany's when I was younger, then I watched Roman Holiday, and some of her other movies. When I think of Fabulous, I think of Audrey. I would love to her history, her life story, what was it like to be Audrey.

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Selena. I remember when they murdered her. I was little but I remember. I used to listen to her. She was also an ICON. She was big in Latin America back then, I could only imagine the big things she would've done if she was a live. I love her, and I think I will always do.

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Coco Chanel. Another ICON!! A woman for an eye for fashion, and an interesting life. She became an icon in the world of fashion and couture. I would want to her all about how she started her fashion brand, the controversy behind her during WWII, and everything that is Coco. Another person radiating fabulousness.

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My fourth choice would be my great grandmother. I wish I had pictures to post, but she passed away when I was younger, and from my mom, aunts and grandma say she was pretty fabulous and strong. I wish I could's spent more time getting to know her more. 

I feel like the 5 of us would get along. hehe. :)

Who would you have dinner with?

Boutique Owner - My Ultimate Dream Job

I'm joining Bre at Peacoats and Plaid on her journey of 31 Days Bare Your Soul Blogging. For the month of October, Bre has come up with blogging prompts that Bare Your Soul. Things that you wouldn't know about us. I'm starting a little late on the.. But here is mine. Make sure you check out Bre's blog.

October 4: The job you'd love to have.

Every since I could remember I found myself doodling, drawing dresses and tops, skirts and pants on the side of my notebooks or on a drawing pad. But it wasn't until my Junior year in High School when I fell in love with sewing, and creating clothes. I took a fashion design class as my elective in Junior Year and then again in Senior year. I loved it. Mrs. Thompson, our teacher, had is create 5 sketches every week to turn in as our assignment. I loved being able to draw clothes on those croquis. Besides our weekly sketches, we also had assignments to work on on the sewing machine. Yes there was about 20 sewing machines in the classroom, we worked on Jackets, Pajamas, Tote Bags. I loved it.

The second time I took it Mrs. Thompson pushed me and I challenged myself to make some dresses. My homecoming and my prom dress. ** I looked everywhere for these pictures..:/

Although I still had a lot to learn. Yes I knew how to sew using patters, I knew how to hem a dress, I learned to put zippers and buttons on, I learned to put the boning on dresses to make the corset look, I plaid around with different fabrics. But my sketches weren't perfect, my sewing needed a bit of work, I wanted to learn how to make my own pattern. I realized this is something I wanted to do. The more I thought about it the more excited I got, I researched FIDM here in Los Angeles, even took a 3 day camp there in the summer. I started thinking of opening a boutique!!

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pretty - Alysa Rene Boutique 

I didn't work out right after high school. But now that I got my B.A and finished college, I want to get back to it. I want to take some classes to sharpen my drawing skills, and my sewing techniques. And I want to save money so that someday I can open a business. Those dreams that my 16 year old self (even my 10 year old self) had are still present now, in my 23 year old self. I hope that I will never give up on it, even if it is a far away dream.

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