This weekend I went to a wedding. It was beautiful. As I was sitting at church and then at the reception watching them dance, I began to wonder, when will I have this. Right now there are new engagements, weddings, new babies all round me, and sometimes I wish for this. I know this will happen in due time, but I can't help wanted to know when, or to just fast forward to that time.
I haven't had much experience with relationships, but when I love I love hard, whether it be my family or my friends or my lover. But at the same time I'm so guarded, because I don't want to get get hurt. And one time I let that get in the way of what I was feeling, and I realized that instead of enjoying the time we had together, I pushed it away. But I'm ready to let it go, I'm ready to be a little bit more vulnerable when it comes to love. I'm ready to be in the moment, and not think about it too much. I'm ready to be open.
These last few years, I've been learning to just have fun. I also realized that I have first get to know myself and most of all Love Myself, before I can let anyone in. So here is a tip for myself: love yourself, live your life, and wait for the right person to come along. Don't give up, don't get frustrated. Love yourself.
Yes, I would love to have someone sweep me off my feet. But he will come. Right now I'm happy to surround myself with my family and friends and God.