Through my childhood until now, and probably forever, I've been the shy one, the quiet one. I was always nervous when it was my turn to read or when I had to present in front of the class. I was not a public speaker. When it came to my emotions, I always decided to keep them to myself. When my brothers would tease me, yell at me, or hit me, I wouldn't hit them back or yell back, instead I quietly (pretending it didn't bother me) went to my room and cried. If I stuck up for myself maybe it wouldn't affect me too much.
I had a few friends growing up. I had my cousins, which were like sisters to me. But somehow I just couldn't find myself to tell them whatever was going on, small or big, in my life. I was always the listener never the talker. And for me that was fine. I loved listening and giving some advice once in a while.
Like I said I had a few friends, and in college I met these amazing set of friends. We all lived together at one point, live-in roommates,, neighbors, or honorary housemates. But put 5 girls into a one bed room apartment and you'll have pillow talk. Again I listen to their stories, worries, problems, achievements, happy moments. I was always nervous to tell them about me. Then I began thinking how could you not feel comfortable enough to tell your best friends about yourself. Then they began thinking that, and we became having some problems, we reconciled with the promise that I will tell them what was going on (at this time I was going through a dark time in life.)
I look back at that time, and I wish I could've came here to blog about it instead of doing some of the very stupid things I know wish I hadn't done. My junior and senior year seemed like such a blur! :/
I'm not quite on FB as much anymore. But Instagram, I'm obsessed!!! When I first got insta I felt like I needed to share everything, because its cool. Now I'm finding myself holding back, because people around me are telling me do you really need to share it? So I hesitate, but in my head I say yes! There is nothing wrong with it. From now on, I'm going to try to share as much as possible without spamming. heheh
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